Sorry for the random disappearing act! My webmaster, aka my darling boyfriend, decided to switch hosting services as the former provider was no longer up to his standards so it took a little bit of time to get everything ported over from the old place. But we’re back and ready to get back to writing. Well, once my finals are over with later this week!
I’ve noticed that I have found it getting increasingly harder for me to complete a blog post. It’s weird really, because it’s not like I’m at a loss for topics, but simply that I feel like I’ve lost my voice. I like my writing to reflect me and my thought patterns so that you feel like you’re sitting here talking to me. My natural voice is quite evident in my personal blog but here? It’s waning.
My blog posts are hardly ever novellas. If I took the extra five minutes to proofread further than I already do and implement rewrites, then I’m sure all of my posts would feel much heavier and substantial. However, that doesn’t feel right to me. When the topic deserves a much heavier hand, I’m more than happy to take those extra steps. But for every day stuff? I just want to be my breezy, funny self.
I know where I’m going wrong: focusing on my dream of one day blogging for Weddingbee. I was so concerned with creating a WB appropriate blog, one where I was so funny and so introspective, so imaginative and so whatever else is a common trait amongst the Bees that I lost myself in the process. It wouldn’t do me any good to lose my personal voice in some vain attempt at being accepted to blog on that larger scale that heavily depends on distinct personal voices.
Isn’t it ironic? Don’t you think?
So I say all of that to say this: I promise myself that I will find my voice once again. I promise to develop that voice and be happy with the results. I will continue to be breezy and funny and sometimes irreverent because that is me in real life. I make random connections [sometimes slower than most people], I like to make people laugh but I don’t like to try so hard at it. I don’t stress over the same things other people do because I just don’t see the point. I want to remember that I can be well written without being overworked. I want to sit down and work on a post and be done in how ever many minutes it takes without treating it as if it were a research paper for school. I’m fun and casual and that is the voice I want to reemerge.
And it will. So please hang in there as I make this work.
I know exactly how you feel! There’s always that temptation as a writer to try and cater to your audience, when all your audience really wants is whatever you have that attracted them in the first place.
Three cheers for resisting the call of the bee! Good luck on your quest.